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Name: Ellen
Country: United States
State: Minnesota
Birthday: 6/6/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: acting, singing, being with friends, shopping,ana , talking on the phone.
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
2/9/2004
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| hey everyone!!!!!
i hope everybody's summer is going super....im getting my senior pics taken in 2 weeks so im trying to work like crazy to lose a few pounds before then...my mom is even helping me.....she's not making me eat everything she normally does so that helps alot.......i;ll have to post a pic once i get them back.. i reallyd don't have a lot to say..imagine that?????? does anybody have any tips on getting rid of love handles....mine are HUGE......or anyother quick exercises that burn lots of calories????..if you do please leave a comment..i would so appreciate it.
Talia | | |
| hey girls i hope all of you are doing super with everything....i don't have to see a shrink anymore.!!!!!!! i told my mom i wasn't going anymore because it didn't help me anyway...so im finally free of that.....but she is super paranoid of me being ana...she calls my work to see if i've eaten lunch....and one of my guy friends has caught on to me not eating..and he gives me a lot of crap about me being ana and how i had better start eating...i just ignore him..its not like i have a choice ana is dictating my everymove...every thing i eat and every extra minute i exercise...its insane...i hope all of you guys are doing great in what ever you are trying....whether you are trying to leave ana or if you are trying to use ana to lose some weight...im really trying to improve myself for my senior year next year....i go tanning whenever i can and i finally got my complexion cleared up and i dyed my hair super blonde...now if i can just lose about 20 pounds before school starts i would be happy but im so busy working i barely have time to be outside...but that has its advantages..i can easily lie to my mom and tell her i ate lunch when i didn't so i guess it goes both ways...i got a question for you girls to answer
If a guy liked you for 2 years would you be flattered or would you feel really weird?
This guy kinda scares me but he is so sweet...he has like me for 2 summers now but doesn't have the guts to ask me out...it is crazy...instead he asks my mom if he could date me and my mom is like you have to ask her...and he never did...his brother says he's obsessed and that kinda freaks me out..but i dunno if he actually gets the guts to ask me out i prolly would...
Talk to ya girls later
Talia | | |
| well girls im on a library computer so i have to be careful what i write...i miss all of you so much.....my mom found my ankles and sent me to a shrink......so i have been going to a shrink for a couple months now.......oh yeah on April 8 i got a minor...i was out drinking with some of my guy friends...and i got caught....my parents spazzed....My prom went great i even got prom princess......i had so much fun..my date was perfect...he will prolly be my boyfriend by the end of the summer.....my weight is still close to the same. ana is still in me and no shrink will ever get her to leave....i guess im in this for life....for a while i thought she had left...but she is always in the shadows waiting for me to let my gaurd down and she comes back in full force. i no longer cut my ankles...my mom checks them every couple days now...so it sucks.....my mia isn't as strong as it used to be...i now only do it if i eat too much...im trying to eat normal now....but it doesnt' always work...if someone reads this please leave a comment....i miss you guys so much...i always appreciated all the comments and the support.!!!!! | | |
| Well girls im still alive....sorry i haven't written for like forever....but ive been like super busy....not to make excuses or anything...and it bugs me when i can't be on here...and it seems like i do so much better with eating and exercizing when i write on here....seems kinda weird...kinda like therapy or something. well lets see since i posted last ..i haven't lost any more weight which totally sucks...but then again i haven't gained any either...and thats good.....ive gotten stuck in the b/p rut again...but am desperatly trying to get out....i hate how i feel after i purge.....Ive started cutting again......my ankle is proof...ive found that i can't cut my wrist ;; cuz a lot of people ask questions cuz they see my wrist....but nobody sees my ankle unless i want them too...so im safe there....i know some people may say im like sick or something but cutting doesn't hurt in fact in makes me feel better and it calms me down when im really angry or frustrated or stressed....so what ever works i guess...i hope all of you are doing great...well im off to comment
Ellen | | |
| well girls i promise this won't be a long post!!!!!
Ya know what i didn't do anything this weekend....i sorta feel withdrawn....i get that way sometimes...i just don't wanna go anywhere cuz there might be food and then there will be all the questions why im not eating or i might lose control and eat.....
i totally BINGED today.....and i purged most of it up....but i hate myself for losing control and binging like that....i wish my parents hadn't left for the day....cuz whenever i babysit i like totally lose control and start eating everything in sight......i hate this unending cycle...ive been doing pretty good lately...about not purging.....Some advice to anybody who is ana and is thinking about becoming mia....DO NOT DO IT...it is so hard to overcome ...and i totally hate myself when this happens.....
i don't have time to comment....but i promise i will later today
Hope everyone is having a good day
Ellen | | |
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